You are love

 

Wise words

surprise

like someone blowing in my ear

My eyebrows raise and look left, then right 

 

“shannon”

 

I startle from a fog-brained maze of dead ends and car chases

a snarl of regrets and 

a milky way of unpleasant future-trips

which have left my heart 

almost in tears

 

Silence

 

My head quiets

 

“you are love” 

I hear

 

Silence

 

I begin arguing

 

“but what about all of those “I’m sorrys”?

“oh God, if you only knew what I know.”

“what about the blows I have yet to heave

in someone’s unsuspecting life?”

 

Silence

 

I lean in, listening for the world beyond the world

My ears are starving for truth through the ringing

 

“you are love”

 

no capital letters

no explanation marks

 

“man, that’s hard to believe”

I say in all honesty

 

But something inside leaps

like Mary & Elizabeth’s pregnant meeting

Something that wants the deconstructionist cynic to silence

Something that longs for a good truth again

the kind that opens up the world,

that ventures into the possible hilarity and WOW! of

a good-humored world

 

I am smiling

walking away from the crash of fear

and never-will-be’s

and the tangle of anxiety

 

“Tell me again,”

I say, “but just a tiny bit louder

I don’t want to miss anything.”

 

 

 

 

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